So its 10.30 on a sunday morning. Why im awake ill never know.

Its been a while, but the past week has been one of the best in a long time.

Last Saturday was the Toronto date of the Alternative Press Tour (With All Time Low, Forever The Sickest Kids ETC). I headed down to The Phoenix – one of my least favourite venues – at around 11am. Met up with Alesia, Sharon, Kayla etc. We hung out for a bit before hand. Throughout the show more friends showed up, We sung happy birthday to Alesia, and so on. The show was wonderful, ATL’s set was really good, its hard though because i love so many songs, i always think it would be better if they’d have been able to play this, but i know thats nothing they can really change. It was a really good Set, Forever The Sickest Kids were AMAZING. It was good to FINALLY see them. After ATL’s set, we headed to the merch room, and talked to Rob Dyer, and considered talking to Andy but he was swarmed, the whole place was swarmed – and so so hot. So we decided we would skip The Rocket Summer’s set and head outside to hang for a while.
Which we did, talked to some wonderful boys. Then Lynz Alisha Jocelyn and i headed back to Oakville, Jocelyn went home then the three of us went up to Oshawa and hung out at James’ place for the rest of the night, which was fun.

Sunday was pretty Uneventful, my parents picked me up from Oakville, and we went to swiss chalet, then i came home and slept.

Monday, i went to school, which was well as fun as can be expected. Then Came home and went up to the Air Canada Center for Boys Like Girls, who did amazingly well. They played an awesome set. After me and the girls went and did our street teaming stuff, i still have a bunch of cards haha. Then we went and hung outside which was really fun.

Tuesday through Thursday were a blur of school work and sleep.

Friday was a PD day, which are always fun. Slept in for a bit but not too long. Then Friday night Heather and I went over to Brampton for a Skate4Cancer benefit/Teeter show hosted by my friend Sharon. It was alot of fun, we helped out with doors and things for a while, then kayla and i watched one band called The Diverse Attraction, who were really good. Then Teeter were amazing as always. They’re honestly one of my favourite bands. They played all the songs i love, and some new ones which were wonderful. Right now im just wanting them to hurry up and get recording done haha. They leave next week so, soon! Im super excited for their new stuff, Paul Levitt is amazing at what he does so that with the boys being super good musicians is bound to make something delightful!

Saturday i stayed home all day mostly.
Heather A, and i were discussing blogs posted by random members of the AP tour that basically had talked smack about canada, how much canada sucks and how rude canadian fans are. And we realized we’re both pretty sick of it, so we started this i guess blog thing called “Our Scene Sucks?” (http://ourscenesucks.buzznet.com & http://youtube.com/ourscenesucks ) Theres not a lot up yet as we’re only just starting it but it will be pretty rad soon enough!
Then saturday evening i went to starbucks with Jaymi and Tina, which was cool, the boy working there was super cute haha. Uhm. We had our coffee products then headed over to Ashley’s house, where her and Thomas were hanging out. We played scarface on the Wii it was fun. Then i came home at around midnight.
And that brings us to now. I just woke up and i plan on going back to sleep soon.

Peace & Love.

so im currently sitting in my bed, waiting for my family to finish getting dressed/showered/ready and then im heading up to down town (it does make sense, trust) thennnn sitting in line with the bests for AP TOUR. I cannot wait to see the boys and to party.
Its so early, i honestly havent been awake at this time on a saturday since…i saw cute in december and the hotel was sketch so i couldnt sleep.

yeah.

Anyways just a quick update before i leave

<3

So the past few days have been awesome, this week is going really well which must be a good sign.
On monday i ate lunch with three of my best friends Ashley Tina and Jaymi, and it was really good, i had been somewhat drifting from them for a little while so it was really good to catch up. We decided to go see a movie that night, but when arriving at the mall couldnt decide which to see. So we ate at the mall, went shopping and then Rented Enchanted and went over to Ashley’s place and watched that.
Tuesday was boring, school was boring, We watched Into The Wild in English, and i really really have enjoyed it so far, we’re finishing it finally tomorrow. When i came home tuesday afternoon i checked the college acceptance site and found out id been accepted to the program that is basically created for me and the kind of person i am, i honestly cannot wait to go to college and do this program now, im so excited.
Today i didnt do much, but im really tired so sleep is definatly calling.
Tomorrow is Alesia’s birthday, shes finally 16, which is super cool.
And AP tour is saturday and i couldnt be more excited!

Thats all for now, goodnight!

I’d drive 3000 miles out west to see everything we could have been
I’d turn back the seconds if i knew we could end someway other than this.
Ive give up on this town of broken promises and lost hope.
I’ll move into the city to fill the void where my big dreams once were.
I’d do anything to escape the death hold you have over everything i do.
You always intended to take everything that was never yours for the taking
Youve made your point , now ill make sure you hold it in your heart.
Just at the right angle to cause you some discomfort – payback for all you did.
Eventually the pressure of something so weighted will break you the way you broken me.
Everything i ever said was wasted on your ears.
Every seedy glance you gave was wasted on my eyes.

I would never regret making the mistake of you.
It taught me more than you know.
And you taught me to never let it show.
You cant keep it quiet forever
But knowing you, you’d try.
Listen to every piece of advice.
But dont listen at all.
Its much more appealing to watch you fall.

You’re nothing to anyone who matters
You’ve always been the top scorer, striking all the time.
But its about time that you start losing at your own game
It looks almost as though your lucky streak is over.
Something so worthless was held so high
And now its falling faster than they fell for you.
Your heart can take any of those feelings that it may just have had
(Of which im assuming that there were never any at all)
Box them up with all of the memories we had>
And burn them like i will your photos and the part of me you took away that night.

I would never regret making the mistake of you.
It taught me more than you know.
And you taught me to never let it show.
You cant keep it quiet forever
But knowing you, you’d try.
Listen to every piece of advice.
But dont listen at all.
Its much more appealing to watch you fall.

But none of it really matters at all.
Im down with wanting you, i dont need you anymore
Ive moved on and now im done with you
Over. Done. We are Through.

You are my sunshine, when i need to sleep.
And my moon when i wake up.
You are my light when its light out, and my dark when the sun sets.
Youre everything i need, when i dont need anyone.
And youre nothing when i need everything.
Youre my everything, but you cant be.
You should be my nothing. But i cant help but let you into my heart.
I dont think you know youre doing it.
But you slowly find your way in.
Something you say or do finds a way to make my heart skip a beat.
And everytime i see you i get that funniness in my stomach.
Its so hard to think straight when im in your presence.
Everytime i have to leave, it leaves me wanting more.
Constantly craving your voice, your touch, you.
And its so hard to know that you dont feel the same.
I thought id be able to do this.
But, i cannot. You had me at hello.
And everything since has just made it more certain.
I wish i didnt feel this way, actually that isnt true.
There is no one better than you.
I just wish it were possible for it to be mutual.
Its just going to get harder.
The beating in my chest is rapidly increasing.
As the days decrease.
And soon ill go back to waiting for you again.
This kills me.

i want you.
when you wake up in the morning, with tired eyes and a yawn.
when you get dressed so quickly but so well.
when you go about your daily business
when you stress out and work yourself into a frenzy
when your shy and quiet
when your drunk
when you fall asleep
when you pin me to the wall
when youve got me in bed
with your shirt off and your hands wandering.
i want you.
all the time.
not just sex.
not just physical.
i want all of you.
ive wanted it for so long.
i want you breathing heavily ontop of me.
i want you laying asleep next to me.
i want you with your hand in mine.
i want you with our lips together.
i want you in a hotel room in new york.
i want you in your parents bed.
i want you on the beach in california.
i want you at disneyworld
i want you backstage.
i want you on the floor.
i want you in the car.
i want you on a plane.
i want you in the uk.
i want you when youre not here.
i want you when youre here
i want you while everyone else has you.
i want you with youre green eyes.
i want you with your brown hair
i want you to treat me like im your world.
i want you to be my world.
i want to be your world.
i want you to want me.

Life is only as good as you make it
Positive thinking is a must
True happiness does exist – find it
Find it and cherish it
Find it and devote yourself to it
Find it and make it worth your life
You can change the world
You can make a difference
Your life is in your hands
Do something productive with it
Dont let something so precious go to waste
Dont let it slide out of your hands
Live life to the fullest
Dont let yourself die before you’ve lived

Tonight i went to see a local-ish band called Teeter, most people reading this probably know of/know them. They’ve put on a really really really good show both times ive seen them, and it is wonderful. Im really excited for the new cd theyre going to be recording, they make some amazing songs, if you havent heard of them please do check them out. I have a feeling that this time next year, they’ll be huge so, if you get a second www.myspace.com/teeter is where theyre at. They’re honestly some of the dopest guys around, and i legitimately love their music, as well as them.
I have some pictures and videos that im uploading right now, im sure that you’ll see some of them eventually.
The most of the other bands that played, Hasket, Everlea and Sope were all really good, whereas farewell to 44 were not so good.
It was a really fun time with some really fun people. I got to see some of my best friends, so it was great.
Hopefully ill see Teeter again before they head to Baltimore to record their cd, but if not i will be waiting patiently for their return haha.

s’all for tonight.

I miss those boys more than anyone can truely understand.
For some reason this was more hilarious than anything else today.
So its being posted.

Is the last of my march break. This week is going to be horrible, but ill get through it. School tomorrow wont be fun, but i will deal. Im hopefully getting my hair cut this week, and colouring it myself. We’ll see how things go. Im looking forward to thursday and seeing Teeter and Paul. Those are some wonderful boys. Then easter weekend is friday-monday which will be fun i suppose.
Its almost 11.11 and im deciding while drinking this pomegranate/tangerine juice, who i should waste this wish on.
Who knows what will happen when the time comes. I just wish i did.
Sleep is calling. So goodnight.

 oh and..Dont Be So Scared.