friends, schools, life.
So the past few days have been awesome, this week is going really well which must be a good sign.
On monday i ate lunch with three of my best friends Ashley Tina and Jaymi, and it was really good, i had been somewhat drifting from them for a little while so it was really good to catch up. We decided to go see a movie that night, but when arriving at the mall couldnt decide which to see. So we ate at the mall, went shopping and then Rented Enchanted and went over to Ashley’s place and watched that.
Tuesday was boring, school was boring, We watched Into The Wild in English, and i really really have enjoyed it so far, we’re finishing it finally tomorrow. When i came home tuesday afternoon i checked the college acceptance site and found out id been accepted to the program that is basically created for me and the kind of person i am, i honestly cannot wait to go to college and do this program now, im so excited.
Today i didnt do much, but im really tired so sleep is definatly calling.
Tomorrow is Alesia’s birthday, shes finally 16, which is super cool.
And AP tour is saturday and i couldnt be more excited!
Thats all for now, goodnight!
Bitter?
I’d drive 3000 miles out west to see everything we could have been
I’d turn back the seconds if i knew we could end someway other than this.
Ive give up on this town of broken promises and lost hope.
I’ll move into the city to fill the void where my big dreams once were.
I’d do anything to escape the death hold you have over everything i do.
You always intended to take everything that was never yours for the taking
Youve made your point , now ill make sure you hold it in your heart.
Just at the right angle to cause you some discomfort – payback for all you did.
Eventually the pressure of something so weighted will break you the way you broken me.
Everything i ever said was wasted on your ears.
Every seedy glance you gave was wasted on my eyes.
I would never regret making the mistake of you.
It taught me more than you know.
And you taught me to never let it show.
You cant keep it quiet forever
But knowing you, you’d try.
Listen to every piece of advice.
But dont listen at all.
Its much more appealing to watch you fall.
You’re nothing to anyone who matters
You’ve always been the top scorer, striking all the time.
But its about time that you start losing at your own game
It looks almost as though your lucky streak is over.
Something so worthless was held so high
And now its falling faster than they fell for you.
Your heart can take any of those feelings that it may just have had
(Of which im assuming that there were never any at all)
Box them up with all of the memories we had>
And burn them like i will your photos and the part of me you took away that night.
I would never regret making the mistake of you.
It taught me more than you know.
And you taught me to never let it show.
You cant keep it quiet forever
But knowing you, you’d try.
Listen to every piece of advice.
But dont listen at all.
Its much more appealing to watch you fall.
But none of it really matters at all.
Im down with wanting you, i dont need you anymore
Ive moved on and now im done with you
Over. Done. We are Through.
I dont know what this is.
You are my sunshine, when i need to sleep.
And my moon when i wake up.
You are my light when its light out, and my dark when the sun sets.
Youre everything i need, when i dont need anyone.
And youre nothing when i need everything.
Youre my everything, but you cant be.
You should be my nothing. But i cant help but let you into my heart.
I dont think you know youre doing it.
But you slowly find your way in.
Something you say or do finds a way to make my heart skip a beat.
And everytime i see you i get that funniness in my stomach.
Its so hard to think straight when im in your presence.
Everytime i have to leave, it leaves me wanting more.
Constantly craving your voice, your touch, you.
And its so hard to know that you dont feel the same.
I thought id be able to do this.
But, i cannot. You had me at hello.
And everything since has just made it more certain.
I wish i didnt feel this way, actually that isnt true.
There is no one better than you.
I just wish it were possible for it to be mutual.
Its just going to get harder.
The beating in my chest is rapidly increasing.
As the days decrease.
And soon ill go back to waiting for you again.
This kills me.
Dont Be So Scared
Life is only as good as you make it
Positive thinking is a must
True happiness does exist – find it
Find it and cherish it
Find it and devote yourself to it
Find it and make it worth your life
You can change the world
You can make a difference
Your life is in your hands
Do something productive with it
Dont let something so precious go to waste
Dont let it slide out of your hands
Live life to the fullest
Dont let yourself die before you’ve lived